.... but history does not always repeat. My favorite quote of all time (Secret of mana) has always been more positive than negative (how it is meant actually) to me. I thought: well, if i did not do something in the first place, there will always be at least a second chance. I had great years here in Urstein. I had fantastic years. Great people, great emotions, great projects, great fun, great moods, great - well, great pretty everything. Sometimes a little bit sad, most of the times, freaking happy and awesome.
So its an atomic bomb to me to realize, this time will not repeat. I caught myself at this very second. I wanted to write: ... will not repeat, for a while. Truth is: it will not repeat. This was it. And even if it does not feel so hard at the moment (maybe I am still drunk of the party 2 days ago), i know - and now comes another funny part, I will end this like the guy of "stand by me" ended his story:
"I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was in Urstein. Jesus, does anybody?”