Sonntag, 28. November 2010

Freitag, 5. November 2010





Donnerstag, 14. Oktober 2010

Uiiiiicooooolll!!!!



Alpamare!


Freitag, 8. Oktober 2010

oktober





Montag, 20. September 2010

Mashed


Das verdammt nochmal schwerste single player spiel aller zeiten.... Die Sau!


Freitag, 17. September 2010

29

Mittwoch, 15. September 2010






I´m really missing California sometimes. Really. I mean really. I connect so many things with Los Angeles and the surroundings. Kiss (Love gun, Dr Love,...), Steve Miller Band, 3rd eye blind and many many more (If you know me, you know that music is the most important point in every situation!). And hell yea, I miss the waves! I miss them so much, that I have decided to travel to South France with my friend Denise. Hell, it should have been a bloody gorgeous time. Instead we had the worst weather of all time, gigantic waves that have not been stable enough to ride and a strange school trip kinda feeling. God bless beer :)

But we met some new friends there. Thats cool. I mean it. Really cool. Thx for that at least! Ah as the giants said: you cant always get what you want.




Sonntag, 29. August 2010

New Tool!!


Sonntag, 1. August 2010

Giselle, the guys got a Dodge Ram!

Well. makes no sense at all, does it? Or maybe it does... if you have read this blog 2 years ago. I will not tell the story now. I will just tell you: this sentence has transformed into a metaphor for a lot of things in my life. "Giselle, the guys got a dodge ram!" fits perfectly in so many situations! Gotta go outside now. One of the famous "Austrian Sunny days" today. Cheers and all the best to all of you!

Mittwoch, 28. Juli 2010

Montag, 26. Juli 2010

I´ve never seen...

A cat looking like this.
A butterfly like this.
A cloud combination like this.




Montag, 19. Juli 2010

@ Wartberg







Dienstag, 6. Juli 2010

Ok, let´s see.

Well, the last weeks were pretty heavy. I mean HEAVY. I mean heavy fucking freaking metal heavy "new heavy material from outer space" heavy. Now is the time to think about this. So what I did 1 minute ago: I made myself a beautiful gin tonic with ice cubes (more ice balls...), sat down, put in good music and started to write.

I dont want to write the things that happened. I dont want to write the good or the bad things. I just want to say: I am on the up-wave again. Well, still pretty, pretty at the beginning of the up phase, but still I can see the light again, so here (just like always) is the point:

These days I felt this feeling that is described as the "black holes of minds". You dont know about that? It is the feeling, when you can not see any escape from your situation. I mean NO FUCKING WAY OUT. It feels like a dead end of life.

So hey, you can see that I am writing. And I guess you can see that I am writing pretty positive actually. Ask me a week ago, if I would think, that things are gonna get better one day. Guess what I´d have said: "No... fuck no. Never. I....". Well, and then I would have shut up, maybe pulled out a tiny tear of my dehydrated eyes, and I would have gone back to my bed. The only "save place" in those kind of days.

But here I am.

Man, not much has been solved. There are still most of the problems there. I can see them. I can feel them. But the most important thing for solving or better for confronting problems, is a clear, positive mind. And I did not have this mind in the last couple of weeks (and so on and so on). You guys know how much I could write now about this topic. But I wont. What I will do is grab my guitar and write a couple of songs. Maybe record it. I´ll let you know. Some have already been written in some early hours when I could not sleep.

So again: the point. The important part. The thing, you have to read and believe:

Dont think there is no way out. This is just not true! There is a way out. Your problems might not be solved by time or anything, but your soul and your mental health will heal with time. Then you will be stronger than ever and you might change your life a bit and you might solve one problem after another.

Good luck to everyone who feels or felt the same way.

Good luck and trust me: it will get better. Don´t give up.

Never give up!


PS: the only thing that is really hard is the fact, that the college times are over and that it will probably hurt me, to listen to college rock the next few month (or years....i hope not). I´m talking bout Jimmy Eat world and so on. The tunes of the good times. Man, how I will miss those years.

Montag, 5. Juli 2010

Sonntag, 4. Juli 2010

Time flows like a river...

.... but history does not always repeat. My favorite quote of all time (Secret of mana) has always been more positive than negative (how it is meant actually) to me. I thought: well, if i did not do something in the first place, there will always be at least a second chance. I had great years here in Urstein. I had fantastic years. Great people, great emotions, great projects, great fun, great moods, great - well, great pretty everything. Sometimes a little bit sad, most of the times, freaking happy and awesome.

So its an atomic bomb to me to realize, this time will not repeat. I caught myself at this very second. I wanted to write: ... will not repeat, for a while. Truth is: it will not repeat. This was it. And even if it does not feel so hard at the moment (maybe I am still drunk of the party 2 days ago), i know - and now comes another funny part, I will end this like the guy of "stand by me" ended his story:

"I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was in Urstein. Jesus, does anybody?”