Sonntag, 28. November 2010
Freitag, 5. November 2010
Donnerstag, 14. Oktober 2010
Freitag, 8. Oktober 2010
Montag, 20. September 2010
Freitag, 17. September 2010
Mittwoch, 15. September 2010
I´m really missing California sometimes. Really. I mean really. I connect so many things with Los Angeles and the surroundings. Kiss (Love gun, Dr Love,...), Steve Miller Band, 3rd eye blind and many many more (If you know me, you know that music is the most important point in every situation!). And hell yea, I miss the waves! I miss them so much, that I have decided to travel to South France with my friend Denise. Hell, it should have been a bloody gorgeous time. Instead we had the worst weather of all time, gigantic waves that have not been stable enough to ride and a strange school trip kinda feeling. God bless beer :)
But we met some new friends there. Thats cool. I mean it. Really cool. Thx for that at least! Ah as the giants said: you cant always get what you want.
Sonntag, 29. August 2010
Sonntag, 1. August 2010
Giselle, the guys got a Dodge Ram!
Mittwoch, 28. Juli 2010
Montag, 26. Juli 2010
Montag, 19. Juli 2010
Dienstag, 6. Juli 2010
Ok, let´s see.
I dont want to write the things that happened. I dont want to write the good or the bad things. I just want to say: I am on the up-wave again. Well, still pretty, pretty at the beginning of the up phase, but still I can see the light again, so here (just like always) is the point:
These days I felt this feeling that is described as the "black holes of minds". You dont know about that? It is the feeling, when you can not see any escape from your situation. I mean NO FUCKING WAY OUT. It feels like a dead end of life.
So hey, you can see that I am writing. And I guess you can see that I am writing pretty positive actually. Ask me a week ago, if I would think, that things are gonna get better one day. Guess what I´d have said: "No... fuck no. Never. I....". Well, and then I would have shut up, maybe pulled out a tiny tear of my dehydrated eyes, and I would have gone back to my bed. The only "save place" in those kind of days.
But here I am.
Man, not much has been solved. There are still most of the problems there. I can see them. I can feel them. But the most important thing for solving or better for confronting problems, is a clear, positive mind. And I did not have this mind in the last couple of weeks (and so on and so on). You guys know how much I could write now about this topic. But I wont. What I will do is grab my guitar and write a couple of songs. Maybe record it. I´ll let you know. Some have already been written in some early hours when I could not sleep.
So again: the point. The important part. The thing, you have to read and believe:
Dont think there is no way out. This is just not true! There is a way out. Your problems might not be solved by time or anything, but your soul and your mental health will heal with time. Then you will be stronger than ever and you might change your life a bit and you might solve one problem after another.
Good luck to everyone who feels or felt the same way.
Good luck and trust me: it will get better. Don´t give up.
Never give up!
PS: the only thing that is really hard is the fact, that the college times are over and that it will probably hurt me, to listen to college rock the next few month (or years....i hope not). I´m talking bout Jimmy Eat world and so on. The tunes of the good times. Man, how I will miss those years.
Montag, 5. Juli 2010
Sonntag, 4. Juli 2010
Time flows like a river...
So its an atomic bomb to me to realize, this time will not repeat. I caught myself at this very second. I wanted to write: ... will not repeat, for a while. Truth is: it will not repeat. This was it. And even if it does not feel so hard at the moment (maybe I am still drunk of the party 2 days ago), i know - and now comes another funny part, I will end this like the guy of "stand by me" ended his story:
"I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was in Urstein. Jesus, does anybody?”